失焦

羽毛球拍與高速飛翔的

羽毛球碰上

發出鏗鏘的聲音

加上幾個晃動的人影

和偶爾的笑聲

拼湊成一個沒有日落的黃昏

倦怠的軀殼掛著蒼白的面具

面前的是青春

背後的是工作

手上的是未來

一個呆若木雞的青年

拿起破爛的球拍揮舞著

彷彿自己擁有著自由

卻忘記了那雙麻痺的小腿

和那對失去焦點的眼睛

28 going on 29

I am twenty eight going on twenty nine
basically everything is fine
except for an occasional hiccough
followed by a lot of love

Yes there have been some losses
but they remind me to take pauses
in life where love is to be savoured
and even sorrow is sweetly flavoured

Aging is never a mystery
as we can always look at our parents' history
It's just a head with more strands of white hair
and a few more burdens to bear

But growing up is a bittersweet adventure
waiting for us all to venture
Picasso said it takes a long time to become
young, and now I believe the time has come


ps. Thank you everyone for your blessings and gifts and love. God bless you all. =]

Before 29

Before this last year of entering 30, when I am still 28, when I am still young yet too old, I feel the need to write something. I feel the need to jot down some of my thoughts before they are gone, too quickly, too abruptly, too unexpectedly.

The past year has been a difficult one, challenging in all manners possible: physically, psychologically, spiritually, interpersonally and all the more. I can't help but wonder what awaits, especially after this seemingly-never-ending school year. Yet, in the midst of my imagination, when I turn my head and look back, there are countless blessings along the path of thorns. 

I would like to thank God, but then it's mainly between Him and me. There are people I would like to thank too...

Parents, for their unconditional love.

Colleagues, for their warm regards and support.

Friends, for their persistent care.

Brothers and sisters, for their unremitting prayers.

And among them all are precious friends like you, who are currently reading my blog, whom I like a lot, who are basically brothers and sisters to me not in the Christian sense, but literally, as you walk with me through valleys of difficulties and troughs of illnesses. You are angels sent by God to comfort me when I am dispirited. For this, I am forever indebted to you and probably I have told you so, in one way or another.

I made a wish today when my F3 class presented the three birthday cakes (and surprising me with them). I wished that everyone would grow up well. And so be it.

ps. Good night everyone. I am not gonna stay up until 12am, obviously.

致青春

想起孫燕姿主唱的<尚好的青春>，美麗的旋律和歌詞

尚好的青春都是你 再遙遠都跟隨你
若滂沱大雨 不曾見證 海角相偎依
衣角怎麼會濕淋淋

尚好的青春都是你 沒有片刻不想你
就算能真在對的時間 遇見對的你
遺失的青春怎能回得去

千萬記得天涯有人在等你
風再疾再狂我也不放棄 願為你
直到有一刻能守著你的心
就算你不會懂也不會可惜

千萬記得天涯有人在等待
路程再多遙遠不要不回來
不去想不去計量你的心 有多明白
前往幸福的路有多少阻礙

就算給你的愛 石沉大海
青春飛逝就再 找不回來

No man is an island

- John Donne

No man is an island,
Entire of itself,
Every man is a piece of the continent,
A part of the main.
If a clod be washed away by the sea,
Europe is the less.
As well as if a promontory were.
As well as if a manor of thy friend's
Or of thine own were:
Any man's death diminishes me,
Because I am involved in mankind,
And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls;
It tolls for thee.

Children's day

On the very last day of the Easter holiday, I woke up at 9am, with the help of the alarm clock, hoping to accustom myself with waking up earlier, which is something that cannot be avoided tomorrow.

However, the medicine is so strong that I cannot help but fall back to sleep after drinking some water and eating a bun. My friends were on their way to a bible study session at my home this morning, and I decided to stay in bed to listen to them and also take a rest if I can sleep. (My brother is here to serve them so it's fine)

I couldn't really get out of bed because I'm in my pyjamas and my hair is as messy as a bird nest so I am here stuck with my phone (gladly I've got it with me) waiting for them to go out for lunch so that I can leave my bed. 

I'm still struggling with the decision. I do want to make that decision when I'm feeling 100% alright physically so that it is not an impulsive one. Yet I do have to decide soon. I want to leave because it would mean some breakthroughs in life and a chance to get some real rest. I want to stay because it would mean I can continue to walk closely with those whom I treasure and understand what they're experiencing better. 

Let God guide me. Amen.

Hope

These days I am not really in the mood of writing. Partly it is because the sickness has not gone away after having much hope. Partly it is because I still couldn't make up my mind on the decision.

Yet, I am not disappointed at God.

I am not angry or what; I just need more patience.

Hong Kong is an environment that discourages the development of patience and most of the time it's like time and tide wait for no man. 

I am still imagining various possibilities in life. May God's will rule over mine. Amen.