To be fully alive is to act; to be fully alive is to contemplate.
- Parker Palmer

星期日, 2月 28, 2016

夜深的燈光

凌晨的夜
剩下一支支孤寂的街燈
還在靜靜地守護著無人的街道

把床邊的眼鏡重新戴上
電話屏幕上顯示的是二時二十八分
在電話另一端的你
相信此刻也正在發你的好夢

望出窗外
在眾多大廈中
尋找還未關燈的單位
期待在人潮內
還有一個一起失眠的你

或許你也正在尋找
這樣的一個他

星期六, 2月 27, 2016

風的笑聲

在某個早晨
迎著寒風
帶著沈重的心情
走進學校的大門

在歷史的洪流中
出現一會然後消失
在同一大門前轉身離去
不再回來

我彷彿聽見風的笑聲
叫我想起
答應過你
要一直保持微笑

那麼請讓我
臉上的神經永遠別死去
讓我也可以
一直逗你笑

星期日, 2月 21, 2016

Decision

My new 40-day challenge doesn't involve writing, and that's probably why I cannot come up with anything substantial even after trying. I believe that most of the times words also come from God, and I don't want to write purely for the sake of entertaining myself. Maybe I will just write what's on my mind.

I just want to say that these few days have been especially difficult for me. Although my health remains in a 'not-so-good' state, it is not exactly my physical health that leads to the difficulty I am going through these days. It's that I am about to make one of the biggest decisions in my life, and I am hesitant. I do not want to regret at all, and having to leave my comfort zone and beloved people in my life is a scary idea itself. The change is potentially depressing as I imagine waking up with no job and no school to go back to, though I know it can be rewarding and exciting too as I embrace a new challenge (or a few of them). The notion of departing my workplace has been thought over every single year in the past, so I am not completely unfamiliar with it, and frankly I am somewhat rather prepared psychologically. But I will miss the people; in fact I am missing them already. 

I have still a few days till I make up my mind and act. Do pray for me to have courage and peace. Thank you.

星期五, 2月 12, 2016

學習

要好好記住有心無力的感覺
到有力的時候不能浪費絲毫時間和機會

星期一, 2月 08, 2016

書店日常

看罷《書店日常》一書,對香港的獨立書店認識更多。

我喜歡看書,也喜歡書,不過卻少有逛這些獨立書店的經驗。一來小時候我通常會在書展或者大型書店買書(又或者爸爸媽媽買書給我看),二來爸媽不會去這些地方而我又絕少自己外出。這書透過作者走訪香港中不同的獨立書店,讓讀者更了解獨立書店的運作和老闆們的心路歷程。本來,我盼望這本書會為我來年的一些計劃給予一些更肯定的答案,不過看完後仍然迷茫。

其實,這書滿足了我開書店的幻想,也帶我回到現實,因為要開一間書店絕非易事。我可以預計,當中一定不會賺錢(不過,這並非我的考慮)。而且,如果認真地辦,不會比現在的工作輕鬆(那麼我是否真的能休息呢?)。

這幾天,身體狀況、手上工作、未來方向、屬靈狀況、感情狀況等事情和想法一直困擾著我,令我完全沒有心情工作(要改中六考試和製作中五教材)。其實,寫文章也沒有心機,可能你也感覺到。對不起。

後記:沒心情改考試卷,就讓我放縱多幾天吧。明天開始連續三日到內地(中山)散心,盼望身心能得到重整,並且想通一些纏繞已久的問題吧。

星期五, 2月 05, 2016

不在乎

人大了,在乎的東西少了。

以往有些東西很在乎,在乎的東西也不少。做學生的時候把成績、玩樂(主要是打機)、勝負、朋輩認同、老師看法、甚至ICQ幾多個朋友看得很重。開始工作以後漸漸地把勝負看輕,不過還是很在乎別人的看法、學生的成績、個人的榮辱、自己的感受、甚至相片幾多個like與留言等等。這幾年開始,慢慢把學生成績、個人榮辱、別人看法等的重要性調低,反而更重視建立深入關係、身體健康和心靈健康。最近,開始慢慢把圍牆拆下,讓真正的自己表露人前。雖然,因此會更容易受傷,但當不再在乎自己的感受,只在乎天父的看法和別人的成長的時候,真誠換來的是快樂。

後記:如果你看到我有些東西很在乎,代表我還著緊。我怕,當有天我甚麼都不在乎的時候,我就會揮袖而去。...不知道自己在寫甚麼,或許之後重寫。

星期四, 2月 04, 2016

Hello readers

為報答大家一直對這裡(和我)的支持




























預祝各位新年快樂

ps. 其實是會寫點東西,等等

星期一, 2月 01, 2016

Sometimes in life

Sometimes in life we just want to leave everything behind
and take a break
and breathe
and walk alone
and throw ourselves into the bed
and cover our heads with thick blankets

Yet
sometimes in life we just need to open up
and embrace the emotions
and share with others
and reach out to those in need
and give others support
and forget about ourselves

Don't expect the headache to go away after a sleepless night
just leave it behind
and move on